Friday, January 16, 2015
I'm Home( midterm 1st examination)
I looked at my old forgotten friend who once loved me. Now she gives mea scowl for what I have done to her favorite child."Jenna... Jenna Wilkins. She hasn't changed much since you've been gone." I watch her walk by us, God she is so beautiful. Why did I ever leave her. Mrs. Finn keeps talking, "yeah, she's had a tough life. She lost her daddy when she was about five. The mother.... her mother has never been the same since, she blames Jenna for him leaving. she hasn't been the same since you left you know. She used to have a twinkle in her eyes and was happy now a days it seems she can't wait for the day to end. I know you hurt her but, you might be the only one that could save that girl from going down the wrong path. Don't dare you mess with her. I don't want you to hurt her again. Don't even think about it She's been through a lot already."
I look at her. She looks so sad, not the girl I remembered. She was once the exuberant one, the one who was full of energy, always smiling. Jenna seems like the total opposite now. There is something wrong with her I just know it . She walks by all alone now she used to have tons of girls at her sides never leaving her for a millisecond what the hell happened. She doesn't look if people are watching her but they are she doesn't comment when people yell anything at her.
"What's her problem? Why is she ignoring everyone? "The girl I once knew had friends at every corner and never had an empty seat at her table. The old lady looks like she is about to cry at the question. "She doesn't trust any of them. They bully her to such an extent that some days she will have bruises all over her body. Most times than not, she is over my house getting a cut cleaned or just for a shoulder to cry on.
"Why do they pick on her so much?"
" It's because they are jealous. Everyone knew you guys dated so when you left without a word the girls blamed her. also the all the boys want her because she dated the most popular guy so they believe they deserve her but she doesn't want them. Those girls are jealous because they believe she never deserved you which is a lie and the guys want her, but she doesn't want anything to do with them, they give her a tough time. She doesn't know how to stick up for herself or she just doesn't bother to. She wants nothing to do with these boys. I bet you can understand why."
I have a flash back to the last conversation I had with her. The night I ended it all.
I drop her off from our date and walk her to the door like I always do. Her dress sawya with her hips and couldn't help but think she was the most beautiful girl in the world. I don't want to say what I have to do but what she doesn't know is that this will be the last time I would ever walk her up those old cement stairs. She was about to hug me when my traitorous mouth spit out those venomous words that been haunting me for months. "Jenna I'm moving" she stops for a second in thought like she's trying to process it. "Ok are you moving soon or are you-"
"Jenna I'm moving tomorrow and I... I don't think we can date after today." tears start to form in those beautiful blue eyes of hers.
"What do you mean? I can call you I...we...can Skype we can make it w-"
"Jenna its over. Don't you get it I don't want anything to do with you after I move."
"buuutt..." her lips were trembling and I know she was trying to hold her tears.
"No its over. You know how it is i'm going to move. New life. I don't want a old girlfriend holding me back from having fun.
She was clawing at my back begging me to come back that we could make it work.
I walk away leaving her crying at her porch. those words felt like vinegar. I hate lying but I had to I didn't want to try to make it work then we lose connection. she would hold on and hope we will see each other again. that's not what I want. She will keep on hoping till the end of the world. her heart would break but its better this way. I -
"You okay honey you seem deep in thought?" I look up at Mrs. Finn her wrinkly face worrying about me and I just knew I needed to fix things with Jenna for better or worse.
" I'm okay Helen, I want to fix things but she doesn't even remember who the heck I am. What the heck can I do? I should of never left her in the first place." She just nods her head. " Just fix it sweetie and please promise me you won't ever hurt her again. She is such a nice girl. It always pains me to see her so sad."
I look up at Helen, she's like a grandmother to everyone in this small town. " I won't Helen. I learned my lesson a long time ago."
I walked the halls not even sure where the heck I'm going. I was about to turn around when I saw a flash of her brown hair and navy blue sweat shirt turning the corner. Here's my chance.
"Hey wait up, I need to ask you a question." I said a little out of breath.
"Why don't you ask someone else I'm kind of in a rush?" she was rushing down the hall, like she was running from something. She wasn't looking where she was going and a foot stuck out right in front of her path causing her to fall and all her books she was holding on to, went flying. " Ha! Jenna look where your going you weirdo, I won't be so nice to you next time." She got up like nothing. I turned around glaring at that boy. I wanted to punch this guy so hard. "Why don't you leave her alone." I spit out in anger, but he wasn't alone anymore. Everyone was standing there and pointing. They were all laughing at her and taking pictures of her.I couldn't believe it. I turned just in time to see her running away I heard in the distance someone yelling my name but I didn't stop. "Hey what was that about?"
She shrugged her shoulders. " Its... nothing, just forget about it. Thanks to you, they got me before I could get to class. Those pictures will be all over school by first period". her back of her shirt rided up alittle and saw that scar and then I remembered all the pain I caused her.
The doctors said she was lucky to make it out of the burning car, the car flipped over and no one should of been able to survive it. she was pretty beat up.....might not come out of coma.... sirens going off... the wait....the nurse telling us to leave because visiting hours were over...me clutching her hand begging her to wake up. her eyes opening, I felt like the happiness person in the world but then she said those awful words that I will never forget. " Who are you?" I knew that moment that she didn't remember me and never will. I left her there with her family, it was my fault after all if I didn't leave her like I did maybe she wouldn't of gotten into that accident.
She tried to avoid a guy who screamed at her across the hall.
"Hey, Jenna you wanna go to dance with me, oh wait I forgot we are not good enough for you, idiot girl. Your missing out." Some jock yelled at her when she was running . "Why is he all up tight about you ignoring him?"
She stopped and looked me in the eyes for once. "I don't date anyone ever even if its just a dance. I... had a boyfriend before and h...he left me. I guess I just never let it go. I promised myself along time ago to never get involved with another guy." Wait a minute she remembers me. Does she remember everything? She looked like she was lost in thought. Is that what I really did to her? "Yeah, but I bet that guy meant no harm. Maybe he didn't want to leave. Maybe he had to."
"How would you know how he was like?" she started walking towards me her voice raised every step she took towards me. " He broke my heart the last day of summer, two years ago. I thought he was the most sweetest guy ever, then he just drops from the end of the world. Then a week after he left he called me saying he has to do something and that he might never see me again." Tears streamed down her face like a waterfall. "He hurt me so bad I have never been into anyone since he left. Every guy I see, I end up judging him, like the one who hurt me. That's why the girls hate me. They can't believe how I'm not interested in any of them. Just leave me alone! Do what everyone else does. Ignore me!" She tried to storm off, but I grabbed her arm and swing her around to face me.
"I don't want to ignore you though." I look down at her scar and I look back into her eyes. "How did you get that scar?" she looks at me for a second then she shrugs her shoulder. " I was in an accident and I don't quite know anything else. Why don't you want to ignore me I'm a nerd.?
" Because your a beautiful girl Jenna and I want to get to know you more. Hang out with me. Maybe even go to this dance with me?"
After that encounter the day went by in a flash. All I can really remember seeing her blush when she said yes. I like how she's shy. That's the girl I remember.
I'm currently chatting it up with her mom. "Its great to see you again sweetie but do you think it will work she might not ever figure out who you are," says her mom . I hear foot steps coming down the stairs and then I see her.She is so beautiful. Prettier than I ever remember her being. It took all my will power not to keep my mouth from opening. Hey what would of you done if you just saw the hottest girl ever? I brought her to the car and opened the door like a gentleman and then we headed to the dance.
Jenna looks like a goddess. Its been the best dance I ever been to.
" Grab your partner guys and let's start this party!" The disco man yelled. I grabbed Jenna, ready to get this night on. I smiled remembering how she sucked at dancing. she looked shy, she didn't know where to put her hands. she looked up into my eyes like she was trying to analyze my face.
" You look so familiar, but I can't quite know why?" I look at her and I just know I can't hold it in anymore. "Jenna Bear you remember me, honey. Your mind just doesn't want to believe it." I tucked a piece of hair around her ear. She had a look of confusion in the beginning then it morphed to anger.
"I don't believe it." Tears clouded her eyes ."Luke? why...how. Oh my god! You jerk. How dare you come back in my life You were the guy? The one who left me I'm so stupid." Her hand shot up from no where and slapped me square in the face and she was running. I knew where she would be. I stepped outside in the cold December air. There she was running. I ran to catch up with her. I was able to slow her down and trap her behind a tree. " Look I had to leave Jenna if I could of stayed I would of. Jenna I love you! Please look at me. Her eyes glistened with tears, but she still wouldn't look up to me. I grabbed her chin so she had to look at me. She looked like she was fighting an internal battle.
"Oh, Luke I missed you so much! Don't ever leave me again." She crashed her body into me. Oh god, I missed her so much. "Don't worry Jenna I won't, never again." I was in her arms and I wasn't planning ever to let her go ever again. I'm finally where I belong. I'm finally home.